Thursday November 22, 2012 7:44 P.M.


So here I am with another post on day 2 of my blog writing. I came from home at 5 P.M. Yet i slept till 7 And now it's 7.36 and I still haven't started studying. It might not be a big deal for some people but I have always said a few minutes later. This is one of the biggest mistakes of my life. The five minute later idea has robbed me of millions of minutes and taken several days away from me. It has stopped me from being productive, creative, analytic and what not?

Why O why does this problem always effect me? So I have decided that I don't have enough time to finish tomorrow's assignment. Yes a few more friends of mine have agreed to not give it tomorrow. But this attitude is just so wrong. It's bound to take away time away from me in the future. And that's the time when I will regret it. Right now I am contemplating on whether I should finish that little writing work which is remaining. Maybe I should. Wait ......you know what? I should finish it. I definitely should. It's not good to keep them piled up one after another.
 A friend of mine just called. He was working on a problem and it seems that he solved it.  Damn and here I am still trying to regain my lost focus. People might accuse me of being comparative with other people. But I'm not. In fact just by being the opposite I have become way too much slack. And here I am trying to just obtain a pass while my friends here have been trying to get 80% and 9 point GPAs. At first it might seem like just a passing phase but I have been struggling like this days before my exam to get a pass for the past three semesters. It was a bit like this in School in Std. XI. But at that time I knew that everything was going to be fine since those results won't matter. But now even a single supple will really screw up my graduation card. What I'm really afraid of is the fact that I might even lose my Scholarship if they don't find my grades good enough.

The problem is, whenever I try to study I either get bored and go off to sleep or it becomes so overwhelming after a certain point that I get distracted and decide that I need a break. And then that break extends into the 24 hour schedule and wallah....Another day wasted. I just cannot afford that right now. I look at my huge bundle of physics notes and wonder when am I gonna finish studying?
That is if at all I can finish them all.
And then there's Math.
There was a time I was in love with Math. Oh how I loved those triangles and circles and those beautiful equations. Then came +2 and then the huge syllabus was too overwhelming. I still loved Math though. It was just that I had 12 chapters for my syllabus back then and I was good at solving problems from 2 of them. But then I learnt about selective studying and wow I once again managed to get through. Math was always the subject that saved me.
Now here again I stand at a point of time when Math intends to betray me. I have a lot of chapters to complete. About 6 of them. And I'm good at solving just 2 of them. It might seem cool but those chapters constitute about 200 pages which I'll need to complete in just 2 days.

I always say next time I would work on getting my work done as early as possible. But what if there is no next time? There will come a time when there won't be a next time. It's a cruel world. But it's the same cruel world that gives so much love. I need to accept both sides of it.